PRIVATE LIVES PRIVATE LIES – doing the unimaginable

We walk this earth with a plan and then we come to the plan and live it for awhile but lo and behold the plan no longer feels like the right plan. So the mind wanders and the heart is dissatisfied and the soul is unfulfilled. The weight grows and moves and confusion sets in.

This happened to me.

Moments of loneliness, lack of focus and discontent set in. I thought, “What do I do now? Where do I go? Who can help me?”

“Think Dianna, think!” one voice said.

Another said, “Don’t think, just be.” Be? I repeated.

“Yes, be! Be open, heart open, mind open.”

I exclaimed, “How can I be open, I’m sinking, almost dying metaphorically!”

“Try this new way and see. What do you have to lose?”

“Okay, I’m open. I know I can do this!”

The days and months and years went by. I realized my vision became clearer. Things, ideas, people started to fall from the stars and into my view. Things from the past became part of the future. Cobwebs were removed and answers appeared just because of my openness, my ability, my willingness to do it differently, to un-dig my heels and let myself be. Open to change, open to possibility.

I met a director who I felt would be perfect for a play I had written and there was a triangle shown to me – the director, me, and the universe. We were supposed to have met so I let her know of my desire and she was on board. Then another director surfaced unexpectedly when I was attending a friend’s birthday party. I went over to say hello, being the kind person that I am,  and his wealth of knowledge was presented to me. I instantly raised my arms to the powers above – universe synchronicity – and then I said thank you.

I believe this new person was presented to me because soon after I met him, I found out that the first director had to say goodbye for unforeseen reasons. However, this second director wasn’t exactly leading in the way I expected, as I ended up taking the reigns. I was leading! These occurrences must have been for a reason, so with openness I was able to see  another way – okay, with a little help, a little encouragement from an intuitive generous friend. After seeing me lead, this friend suggested that I be the director because I was the one engaged with the cast members and I was the one who wrote the play. I agreed with his idea. This would be my first time directing even though leading this group came so naturally. There was a deeper knowing – I was feeling myself as a director. It was in my bones.

I began to think that the two directors I mentioned were gifts for me so that I could be motivated to get this play off the shelf and onto the stage for all to see. I knew I was about to do the unimaginable. Everything was lining up so perfectly. I was moving consciously toward a calling, a place where I needed to be or where I was supposed to be. It was silky smooth, how it all came together. I landed freely and gently on the road toward being the director of 18 cast members. Who would have thought I would be a director of a play, let alone one that I wrote without any schooling? Who would have thought the art of being completely open and trusting could take me places I never dreamed of?

Try it. Be open to the universal welcoming – your calling – and see where you land. It worked for me! So my question I leave you with is this: was this my doing or was I helped by a greater knowing?